The problem with having a week where I don’t have anything to do is that I constantly feel guilty about not doing anything useful. Instead of sitting around reading, watching tv shows, and reading feeds online, shouldn’t I be doing something productive? Instead of sleeping for 10 hours a day and napping every few hours, shouldn’t I be preparing for next term?
I guess that stuff is a little too ingrained now. It’s beneficial for me to feel guilty when I’m slacking off during the term, since that makes me get my work done, but now it’s kind of annoying. I find myself watching shows while reading feeds, which means that I’m multi-tasking even when I’m slacking off. -.-
I always thought I was slightly OCD, but I found out that I actually have OCPD to some degree. I can usually redirect the compulsive behavior to more useful things. For example, I keep a to-do list, and it works really really well because I absolutely love checking stuff off and watching it go from a long list to a short list. And I always start on assignments early, because suddenly having three new assignments makes me feel all panicky.
So I guess it has good sides and bad sides. I just need to untrain myself a little so I can actually enjoy relaxing this spring break.
A side note: I started posting the shorter things (links, quotes, etc) to my tumblog. Always good if you’re looking to waste another 5 minutes.
I finally decided to write a comment on your blog. I just wanted to say good job. I really enjoy reading your posts.
Tina Russell
Great… now I don’t know if I am OCD or OCPD. I’m thinking a little of both. You’re a little more OCPD than I am though. And I go through phases, I think.
Were you always needing to be productive, or did it develop in college?
I don’t think you’re OCD… the article says that OCD people usually stress rituals, while OCPD people usually stress perfectionism.
I would agree with you except I have this thing where I always make sure my shoes are together and not pointing in different directions. Does that count as a ritual or perfectionism? If it’s perfectionism, why don’t I keep the rest of my belongings as immaculate?
On that note, do you still you think you have any OCD-ness, or has that all been transferred to OCPD?
I think that’s just a quirk, it doesn’t necessarily indicate OCD… I wasn’t ever OCD, the two are just easily confused, and OCD is mentioned more frequently.